Locktober 2020 - Full Lockdown
Locktober 2020 is over… and it’s been a bumpy road for us all, globally. I’ve felt both desperate to make you break your chastity and concerned that you were going to fall short of your self-made vow. I have to confess, the whole time I had my fingers crossed that you would make it. I want nothing more than to see you achieve great things, have willpower, have strength and conviction!
They say it takes one month to develop a new habit, and with so much unplanned time on our hands during 2020 (and man juice in the case of you unsupervised fiddlers!) we have had this unusual opportunity to create some new habits… well we didn’t have much else to do during the pandemic did we. October was the perfect time to get locked away and get a little more productive during the day, chastity with me in charge can, as it’s now been proven, be exceptionally motivating!
“They say it takes one month to develop a new habit”
If you were part of the challenge on my subscription feed you will have seen my daily video updates. They showed a journey through every mixed and muddled emotion.
I began the month, teasing you as normal, and moved through the frustrated and restless stage as my nudges and tricks were defeated. Around mid month I then went through my own phase of ‘Orgasm October’ just as your hurt started really to kick in. If you were lucky enough, I updated you with each shuddering orgasm I had, while you were nothing but a throbbing mess, unable to act on your desires. Somehow, through it all, I ended up feeling conflicted. My teasing did not break you like I had anticipated. It fuelled me to dig deeper, push harder, to see you struggle. But nothing felt as good as knowing I had, despite my best efforts, the strongest people on my side, and that I can proudly call you #TeamDiamond. It meant a lot to me that you made it.
You survived that month long cum-ban to demonstrate your devotion and resolve. Toward the end your levels of subservience were truly endearing. The self-serving male traits were decreasing and your attention was on me. I suspect when your phone “pings”, or you see that little message notification pop up when you log in… that alone can tip you into “subby” mode.
Locktober 2020 taught me so much about my own needs as well as the needs of those around me. I realised that I require, and grow from, your constant care and affection. I’ve said before how your submission nourishes me and those of you (the vast majority) who made it, gave me such a fun month.
Those who didn’t – I don’t blame you for cracking, life was hard enough as we battled banana bread and Boris. But as I felt you retreat from me, from your own goals, I felt more sad for you than for me. I mean the teasing was relentless, at points my frustration got stupidly funny but the rest of the time… it was downright hot. There was always going to be a fail rate. I had asked about your hopes and dreams, how we could re-focus your mind off your dick and instant gratification if you dedicated yourself to this. But the “need” to cum was just too overwhelming, I get that.
“Your submission nourishes me”
You can always try again next year, and to improve the success rate im going to work on a training program. But to really succeed you have to examine and reflect upon why you failed last time. You have to learn from your mistakes, otherwise why would I invest myself in you a second time. I am a cerebral Domme, I am not happy unless I am chewing on your soul, so when I begin with a new sub I am in it for the long haul. For me to consider another period of key holding, you will need to give me a reason why I should.
Any Domme can hold that key, but get one that is trying to positively impact your life. One that is there to do more than call you a “bitch” and tell you to “fuck off” daily; more on this controversial subject here. Graduate, grow up for fuck sake! If you knew how long term chastity could improve you, you’d sign up and send me the key before I could say “cum ban”.
This doesn’t have to be a “journey”, you may be very happy with your life and ambitions as is. But I’d still want to know what makes you tick. I am not one-dimensional and I am sure you are not either. I am much more than just a woman or just another Domme, and I realise you are more than just another hopeless wanker. Our time together, as I hope you now understand, benefits us both.
Chastity for Complete Beginners
Its important to remember that chastity doesn’t mean your life as you know it must change forever, or that your freedoms end. If anything this may be the start of a journey that for once, doesn’t require endless frustrations and feelings of arousal – because there’s nothing you can do. After Locktober, you may decide that chastity is not for you, or that you much prefer just playing sometimes when you feel like it. However, I would adore having to lock you when you misbehave and become too male, too sexually needy.
To take a step closer to living a locked life with me by your side we can discuss your future through AVN Stars messaging system. Or for something at the very beginner stage, you can buy my chastity clips on Clips4Sale and see how you feel.
What about wearing a cage?
If you do want to explore wearable chastity I recommend you visit KINKPLAY for toys and cages. (Discount code: countessdiamond2021) They have a huge selection (see here) and can help with sizing and how to use a cage which is always an important thing to get right. Most begin with the silicone ones, these are ideal for short term wear and getting used to the idea of confinement. These are also cheaper and help you find the right shape and size, for just enough pinch and squeeze.
Then the resin and metal ones, are where it starts to get serious and you can even stop up a level with a urethral cage. And now we have the remote devices like Cellmate, which allows her to control your twitchy cock via an app, although these are best saved for the most dedicated of chastity enthusiasts. You will feel utterly hopeless but incredibly grateful to have the chastity device, knowing a superior woman controls all your unhelpful male compulsions. You can relax knowing all those problems your dick usually causes are no longer an issue.
The BDSM community can seem alien when you first encounter it, but all it takes is a little patience and some basic research. This is not the Illuminati, or the Masons – there is no ritual, human sacrifice or handshake to get in – you just have to learn how to interact with people all over again.
There is no doubt about it, sexual desires are distracting. At the worst possible time, that little prick shaped bit of your brain pings and there you are, off in fantasy land with last month’s paperwork piling up beside you in the home office while you once again wander off to your favourite subscription site with your hand in your pants. Sufficiently jerked off, you wash your hands and wipe the sweat from your brow before logging in to that Zoom call.
No matter what stage of your relationship, dating, long-term or fully committed, sharing your innermost taboo secrets with someone will seem like the most nerve-wracking thing in the world. But what if I told you the conversation could open you up to experiences you previously thought weren’t possible? What if the conversation led to foreplay or better yet raw, red-hot kinky sex!